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Im still alive... [5.3.07 - 9.09pm]
[ mood | confused ]

YEA I KNOW I HAVE BEEN DOING SOME MAJOR SLACKING WITH UPDATING HERE BUT FOR EVERYONE WHO WAS WONDERING YES I AM STIL ALIVE!! STILL WORKING THE SAME OLD SHITTY JOB @ THE VETS OFFICE, CANT WAIT TO FINALLY LEAVE THERE SOMEDAY. I JUST CANT STAND A COUPLE PEOPLE THAT I WORK WITH THEY JUST BUG THE FUCKING SHIT OUT OF ME. I HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN DOING GOOD THESE DAYS, ALOT BETTER THEN SOME OF THE THINGS I LEFT OFF WITH. ITS VERY STANGE BEING HAPPY FOR THE MOST PART. SOMETIMES I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO ACT, ITS VERY CONFUSING SOMETIMES....ANYWAYS I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT I AM STILL ALIVE AND I WILL TRY TO KEEP EVERYONE UPDATED MORE!!

<3
ASH

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[1.31.07 - 1.06pm]
ok so the weirdest thing just happend....well i should start off by saying that growing up i had a very close friend named george...well a couple years ago he killed hiss elf...no one knows why he did it but he did...well last week i had a VERY vivid dream about him....i could see him just like he used to be, his room was like i remember....in my dream he was already passed away...but he had sent his mom to come find me and tell me how its ok for me to let go and how he looking down on me....the dream was so detailed i actually woke up crying. well today while im at work i am helping a client and i look down and see her address....it was his mom....i asked her if she remembered me and she did....i had to tell her about my dream....which of course made me cry while i was telling her....i just think its all too weird that this happend like it did....does anyone else ever have shit like that happen to them? i mean it happens to me alot...
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Wow so much has happend.. [11.13.06 - 12.25am]
[ mood | confused ]

So alot of shit has happend since the last time I posted on this thing...Josh and I are currently seperated due to not being able to get along with eachother...Its sad but I am sick of fighting all the time. Its been almost 3 months now. I am still trying to be here for Devon whenever Josh feels like letting me see him..Its really fucked up but hey what can I do? I have no LEGAL parental rights even though I have raised him since he was 18 months old. I have bought almost everything that he has.Fuck it I dont really feel like getting into all that shit...I have been trying to get my "social" life back with my friends. I have been trying to go out and make myself happy...sometimes it works other times it doesnt. I have to say thanks to all the people I work with for getting me through this tough time. There is one really special person I work with...hes great.. He understands everything I tell him....one thing...he has a major crush on me... I am attracted to him as well but I have also been hanging out with a major cool guy I went to school with. Right now I dont know what to do...I like them both and Im not ready for a relationship...So how do I go about handling that? This is why I think I need to just find a girlfriend and call it quits. I think I am meant to be a lesbian. I dont even like sex all that much to miss it I dont think..LOL anyways I thought I would just let everyone know I am still alive! I dont even think anyone reads this anymore so fuck it!

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[5.1.06 - 11.05pm]
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WOW [4.30.06 - 12.04pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

I havent updated my own journal since almost a year ago seems i use this site for mostly group stuff...lol I updated my layout...I wonder if anyone will read this...LOL

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[5.30.05 - 12.46am]
New layout back to angelina cause I think shes seexyyy
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New layout [1.13.05 - 12.11am]
I have a new layout its Milla Jovovich. I hope everyone likes it :)
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[1.7.05 - 8.20pm]
Here is the Astro Chart you requested:


Hi there, here is the interpretation of the astrological chart that you asked for. Also attached is a .GIF graphic file which depicts your chart wheel. Thank you for visiting the Astrolabe WEB site at http://alabe.com This report has been created especially for you. It represents your Unique picture at the time you were born and at the place you were born. If you are unsure of the exact time of day of your birth (or the date or the place), the reading will probably not seem as accurate as it could be in certain places, but other parts will seem to be very appropriate. You will notice at certain places in the reading that contradictory information seems to be given. This is to be expected, because the personality of most people is extremely complex. For example, at times we are quite shy and at other times we are very aggressive, and so forth. You will also notice that, at certain points in the reading, certain patterns may be repeated over and over, especially in a longer more detailed report than this one. This is also to be expected. This simply means that your horoscope has an extremely strong focus on this particular pattern and that you should pay extra close attention to what is said about it. Now, on with your Report!

Name: ashley combs
June 20 1985
8:22 PM Time Zone is EDT
kettering, OH

Rising Sign is in 20 Degrees Sagittarius
You are known for being open, frank, outgoing and honest. At times, though, you are also blunt and quite indiscreet. Others have to learn not to take everything you say personally, because you usually do not mean any harm. You appreciate living your life in a straightforward and simple manner -- you dislike social niceties and consider them to be hindrances to real communication. You have lots and lots of energy and tend to become quite restless if you feel confined. You demand the freedom to do as you choose -- you must be self- directed or you feel trapped and anxious. With your abundant energy, you enjoy being outdoors, and you should be attracted to physical exercise or to those forms of sport which can help you burn off some of that excess energy. Very gregarious, you love to socialize -- your innate enthusiasm livens up any gathering.

Sun is in 29 Degrees Gemini.
You have a quick, bright and agile mind, but an extremely short attention span. You love the external, kaleidoscopic aspects of life, but you tend to avoid (and even fear) deep, close emotional involvements. As such, you seem to enjoy travel and sightseeing and generally being "on-the-go." You get quite listless when things around you become static and dull, but your excitement returns whenever you are stimulated by a new idea. Chatty, inquisitive and quite playful, you enjoy practical jokes and games in general. Your moods change quickly and often -- you are very restless and constantly in motion. You are known for your versatility and adaptability. Your vivaciousness enlivens any social gathering.

Moon is in 29 Degrees Cancer.
For the most part, you are very strong and secure emotionally. You intuitively know what to do to make others feel comfortable, loved, accepted and needed. You naturally enjoy feeding and taking care of others. Be careful that your mothering does not turn into smothering. At times, you tend to feel that those to whom you are attached can never do anything without your assistance and support. Extremely sensitive by nature, it hurts you deeply whenever anyone criticizes you. You have an almost desperate need to be loved and wanted and needed by everyone with whom you come into contact, and you go out of your way to be accommodating to them.

Mercury is in 14 Degrees Cancer.
Your emotions tend to rule your thought processes. You have difficulty seeing life objectively. You have an excellent memory, especially about things to which you have formed an emotional bond. You prefer ideas and thoughts that are known and familiar, and therefore tend to dislike fads or radical ideas. The beliefs and traditions of your family and culture are very important to you. Your thinking becomes quite unclear when you are emotionally shaken -- try not to make major decisions when you are upset. Let things calm down first.

Venus is in 14 Degrees Taurus.
You are known to be a warm and affectionate person, and you tend to form long- lasting attachments. The reverse of this is that you can also be quite possessive once you have made a commitment. The beauty, luxury and comfort of your surroundings are important to you and you will devote much time and energy to making your home just right. Beware of your tendency toward self-indulgence, especially with respect to eating incorrectly. You also need outside stimuli to get you in gear When things come too easily for you, you can be lazy and indolent.

Mars is in 07 Degrees Cancer.
Your moods are very important to your overall well-being. You are confident and self-assertive when you are feeling upbeat, and you are retiring, irritable and grumpy when you get depressed about anything. Very sensitive, you wear your heart on your sleeve. You are easily angered whenever you think someone has slighted you. It is best for you to show your anger immediately and let it all out, rather than to try to hold it in or to hold grudges for a long time. You're extremely loyal and defensive of your family, neighborhood, community and culture.

Jupiter is in 16 Degrees Aquarius.
Your personal growth occurs when you have the freedom to do things in new and interesting ways -- this brings out your natural inventiveness. You are an individualist, but you are also attracted to mass movements that emphasize social betterment and you will devote much time and energy to their efforts. Very fair- minded and objective, you have extraordinary skills at organization and administration.

Saturn is in 22 Degrees Scorpio.
You tend to release emotional energies only very reluctantly. This is partly due to your fear of what horrible calamity might occur should they be released -- your emotions are terribly complicated and intense. Try not to repress these energies entirely, however, or you will succumb to negative and destructive forms of compulsive behavior. Give yourself the freedom to look awkward or silly once in a while. The relief you feel will be quite therapeutic and the embarrassment (whether it is real or imagined) will pass quickly.

Uranus is in 15 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 02 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 02 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 17 Degrees Taurus.
It's not in your nature to seek out many casual acquaintances in your daily round of activities. You feel much more comfortable with a small, close-knit group of people -- those with whom you can relax and work toward known and clearly defined goals. Your loyalty to a person or group, once given, is forever -- you'll expend all of your quite considerable energy in seeing that the group stays together and prospers. You choose your partners and relationships so carefully that you're bound to gain certain advantages from them, including those of a material nature. Be careful though not to let mere self-service be your motivation in establishing your connections -- make sure that there's an even give-and-take!
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What kind of girl are you? [12.12.04 - 9.42pm]
[ mood | high ]


You Are the Girl Next Door!


You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry.
Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love.
But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it!
You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life.




What Kind of Girl Are You? Take This Quiz :-)




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What famous pinup are you? [12.12.04 - 9.35pm]

You are Betty Grable


The ulitmate girl next door
You're the perfect girl for most guys
Pretty yet approachable. Beautiful yet real.




What Famous Pinup Are You? Take This Quiz :-)




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What is your sexual flavor? [12.12.04 - 9.34pm]




Your Sexual Flavor Is Coffee


Unique and energetic. Strong and spirited.

You're the bedroom energizer bunny.
When you get down, you go hard and fast.
So what if you chafe your knees every once and a while?
It's not good sex if you don't come out with a new "battle wound"

Secret talent: Rimming



What's Your Sexual Flavor?

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Which Desperate Housewife are you? [12.12.04 - 9.16pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

DHsusan
Congratulations! You are Susan Mayer, the divorcee
and single mom who will go to extraordinary
lengths for love.


Which Desperate Housewife are you?
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[11.1.04 - 7.56pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Ahhh....I have had a great vacation off of work, although i didnt go anywhere it was still nice to be off and stuff :) I have to go back tomorrow and im going to have new office hours where i have to go in @ 7am but then i will get off early like on mondays ill be off @ 4 tues i will work till 7pm Wednsdays i will be off @ 3 i still wont work thrusdays and fridays i will be off @ 4 i think....who knows being how that would leave one chick by herself on fridays after i leave i might end up having to stay untill 5 but oh well! i dont know whats up with elder beermans i turned my app back in cause they are like wanting me back part time, i think it might be too much on me but i am willing to try it and see how it works out. Anyways on another note I FUCKING HATE CRACK HEADS! yes you could have guessed Devons mom is back at her shit again, she is such a piece of shit she should really just give him to us because he would honestly be better off with us....she is just too stupid and cares too much about herself to do that....oh well one day we will get him, one day soon i hope. So i been really lonley latley with josh working nights and stuff but he seems to like his job and things are going well for him so i am VERY PROUD OF HIM! we still been fighting some, i dont know why but we still do hopfully things will get better. well anyways Devon is watching a movie so i think imma lay down and watch it with him. ill update later!

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[10.16.04 - 12.03pm]
I keep on fallin’
In love
With you
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes you make me blue
Sometimes I feel good
And times I feel used
Lovin' you darlin’
Makes me so confused

I keep on
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Oh, oh , I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure
And cause me so much pain
Just when I think
I've taken more than would a fool
I start fallin’ back in love with you

I keep on
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Oh baby
I,I,I, I’m fallin’
I,I,I, I’m fallin’
Fall

I keep on
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Im fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I loved you

I'm fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I loved you
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[10.16.04 - 10.57am]
Had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

She spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me off and puts me on

And had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
Left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day again"

No...

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me off and puts me on

Oh and had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day...again"

She left a note and said, "I'm sorry I
had a bad day..."
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FROM FAE'S L.J [10.16.04 - 10.29am]
(please answer these questions by adding a comment!)


1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. What's the coolest thing about me?
15. What do you think would be my most appealing trait to the opposite sex?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
21. Am I attractive? Why or why not.
22. If you were going to take me somewhere, where would it be?
23. Is there a song that makes you think of me?
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[10.14.04 - 9.42pm]
Memories consume like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume, I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight...

Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more, than any time before
I have no options left again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight…

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight...
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[10.1.04 - 7.29pm]
[ mood | calm ]

WoW so its already October, crazy ass shit i cant belive that winter is almost here man....i love the spring and summer :( Anyways Josh finally got a pretty good ass job working in a CNC lathe place...i hope everything works out its a shitty shift but hey its a good job. As for my job i been liking it alot my schedual is about to change ill have to be @ work at 7am but atleast ill get off alittle earlier dont know if ill like it but ill have to. i havent been updating much I KNOW lol i been busy i should write in here and vent my feelings alittle more instead of taking it out on josh....anyways well i just wanted to drop a quick line and let everyone know i am alive....if anyone even reads this shit anymore...lol ill TRY and update more...

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If i aint got you [9.2.04 - 12.24am]
[ mood | drunk ]

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what’s within
And I been there before but that’s life’s a bore, so full of the superficial


Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need 3 dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me


Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, you, you
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

If aint got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby.

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Fuckin crackhead moms shouldnt be blessed with kids! [8.29.04 - 12.20pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

So yea we were sleeping when we get a phone call from joshs cousin tiffiany saying that her friend just called and said Devon was in the hospital, she didnt know any details just what her friend told her. So we told her to call him back and see where he heard that from, she called back and told us that goofy (devons mom aprile) had called and told her that after she was trying to buy crack off of him. So i called all the hospitals and they have no listing for him, So i called tiff back and told her that so she gave us old dudes number so we could call him and maybe find out whats going on. So we called old dude and asked him what was going on he said that she called and was trying to buy some drugs off of him and then i guess she called back saying that she had to take devon to the hospital...so at this point we have no clue what is really going on besides we knew she was fucked up on some crack as usual. Old dude said that he would help us get her caught up in something so we can take devon from her and get coustody cause everyone knows the kid is happier here with us and that she is a piece of shit drug addict! Anyways to make a long story short we ended up going down to there apartment cause the phone was disconnected and they were leaving in a truck with devon (who is 2 years old ) in the front seat with NO car seat and No booster seat! We asked her why her number was out of service and she said cause she got the number changed and "forgot" to call and give it to us....She said they were going out to eat and blah blah blah she would call us later to go get devon..in the end she did call and we went and got him. So needless to say i hate fuckin crackhead mothers who do stupid shit cause they only care about them selfs and not the well being of the child. i dont understand why god gives women like that kids and some GREAT mothers and fathers cant even have kids.....it just erks me!

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